November 2, 2011

Birthday Contemplations ²

by Wendy • My Life As It Happens

Today is my birthday.  I’m on the backside of 35 and I’m doing a lot more contemplation on my life than I did a few birthdays ago.  I must be nearing a mid-life crisis because now I feel like I don’t have enough time to do everything that I want to do.  I have never created a bucket list but all of a sudden I making lists in my head and on paper of everything that I want to do during this life and there doesn’t seem to be the time to do those things.  Maybe it’s because my life has been so hectic and busy the last few years that it seems impossible to add anything more.  I don’t know what it is but the days seem more precious.  My motto has always been to suck the life out of life and I think I have done a pretty good job at taking as many of the opportunities as I can that come my way.  However, I have let a lot of opportunities slip by, some out of pure laziness and I regret those missed opportunities.

I’m contemplating a lot right now…changes that need to be made, things that need to happen, opportunities that need to be explored.  I don’t want to miss out on anything that gets put at the doorstep of my life.  My birthday has become like the New Year.  Wishes, resolutions, hopes and dreams need to be started today and not tomorrow.  I don’t know how many tomorrows I have.  I realize that even more on the backside of my 30′s.