October 6, 2011
Motherhood Woes 6
Motherhood is such a lonely journey, especially when there are dark days. I have been having such a rough week with Catherine and I feel like I have no one to vent to or get advice from. It doesn’t help that I have been sick; and I am pretty sure that prednisone makes me even more cranky but that doesn’t make me feel any less guilty or sad when I lose my patience with her. By the time evening rolls around I feel like a complete failure and that anyone else could do a better job than me.
Motherhood is so hard and most of us tend to keep our mouths shut tight when it comes to the tough stuff and the feelings we have on those bad days. I wish we shared more with each other. Actually, I wish I knew more seasoned mothers that could give me some insight or a pat on the back. I feel like I know plenty of women with children but yet why do I feel so alone on this journey?
Today, when Catherine is in school for 5 hours, I feel grateful for the break away from parenting for just a few hours. But then that leaves me scared to death of facing next year when we plan on homeschooling her. How will I get those needed breaks on difficult days? Why do I feel like I need a break? Isn’t it wrong to feel like we need breaks from our children? THE GUILT of motherhood is horrible. The loneliness is sometimes painful. Motherhood is not for the faint of heart for sure.
Here’s hoping that tomorrow is a better day.
Oct 07, 2011 @ 07:26:52
I am so sorry you are going through this. I wish I could help. But I am not your seasoned mom. Sorry! I am a seasoned fur kid mom. I am a phone call away if you need me. Love Lisa
Oct 07, 2011 @ 08:11:49
You can always ALWAYS call me. I understand where you are coming from. Love ya!
Oct 07, 2011 @ 10:35:48
I know exactly how you feel. Not seasoned, but I’m definately here for venting. I am lucky to have a great group of very honest and transparent Christian mom’s in a local church group on Thursday mornings. Childcare is provided, and for two hours we can share ideas as we work through a parenting or marriage book. Maybe there’s something simar around there? There are also some great homeschool devotional emails out there, although I share your fears of 24/7 with my child! I am so glad at naptime and bedtime each day and my two days in the office feel like a vacation some weeks!
Oct 07, 2011 @ 13:40:52
I definitely need a break from my kids, I love them to bits but I can’t do 24/7 without getting cross and frustrated, and it’s not fair on them. I go out to work and my kids go out to school, I really don’t think I could homeschool. Is it definitely the only option for you? I know there are lots of very happy homeschooling families, but if I’m honest, I think there are a lot of mums who are very happy when the kids are at school and they have a moment to themselves. It might not be the done thing to say it outloud, but I am sure that I’m not the only one!
If homeschooling is definitely the way forward, is it possible to schedule extracurricular activities that might give you a break?
Oct 10, 2011 @ 19:31:46
Call me if you need me. Hugs.
Oct 17, 2011 @ 10:07:46
One of the things that made a huge difference for me was picking one day a week and leaving the house to go to the library to make out the next weeks lesson plans. It removes you from the house and the child and gives you the quiet to plan effectively. And if you sit there a few extra minutes…more power to you! (Starbucks or other such places work also….had have wifi.)
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